Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Toastmaster phobia....

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just finish meeting with toastmaster only

i dont no why this few days

i hate going there...

maybe because the tight scdule i got or smth....

everytime i present i sure will scare

the stare people give me...

but i dont no...i alwaysa cant get use to be in a new environment

i am shy with new people...but i love attention...

that why i a bit confuse..

when i am with my friend and also in a new environment i wont be nervous or wht ever...

i dont no la...i bet u also dont no wht i trying to say la..

jt got 2 email from dear dear so happy nia

posting it now

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Hello darling,

Bad part

Now im offline typing this email haha..save credit..stupid receptionist..anyway bear with it for awhile..cause by next month i wont need the net anymore..cause my roommate say swiss call swiss is like 80 cents swiss francs for 1 hour..cheap hor haha..can hear your voice everyday..can talk to you everyday..so just bear with it for now..And just now i sent you an email hor..that one i didnt really type what i wanted to say cause i was typing it online..anyway ..today i cut my hand agaun..as usual..and if im not mistaken the stupid chef call me idiot..cause he ask me to take something..i dont understand cause his english SUCKS ..then he call me idiot..fucking stupid la..he cant even speak properly and he expect people to understand..zzz..somemore he tell me the german name for the thing..how the hell would i know what is what..not like im a german or something..somemore im in a foreign place..not like i live here..he cant expect me to understand his rubbish english + pronounciation..well anyway dun bother bout that idiot.

Good part

Dear..to me you are also the most important one in my life..wherever i go i keep thinknig about you..even when im cutting i think about you..i dont really know what i have done in the past life to get a perfect girl like you..but oh well ..i wont waste this opportunity..i will treasure you for the rest of my life..you are more precious than anything else in the world to me..finding a girl like you is like finding a grain of rice in the pacific ocean..its nearly impossible..thats why i am really thankful that i have you as my gal..maybe sometimes i do say some things that make u sad hor..and maybe sometimes i do get angry..but you should know why le..i love you too much until im hurt by some things that you do..but basically it wont change the fact..the fact that i love you and i will never leave you forever..what i really want in the future is that...both of us..living happily together..have our own family..every morning ..the moment i open my eyes..the first thing that i would see is you..and the last thing i would see before i sleep is also you..i want to get through all the problems in life with you..share sad and happy moments with you..i want to be able to take care of you when you're sick..not like now i cant do nuts here..spend all my free time with you..go on vacations together..live forever together..my friend told me before..you will notice it when you have the right one..people can have many bf's or gf's but when they actually find the right one they would notice it right away..well..i never had a gf before haha..but yea i know very very well that you are the right one for me..its like i am familiar with you..knew you for a long time already..ok la i dont know you for a long time but i think you should know what i mean.and when i met your parents..i didnt feel that embarrased..usually i would feel dam embarrased..cause as you know im the quiet and shy type..it feels as though we are one family like that haha.i just hope that you wont leave me and we could live together forever..ok le its kinda long..i'll type again tomorrow or something haha.Later you lazy to read @.@ Take care dear dear..Love you always...dont kao guys o !

From Happy nic


forget to say....i wear the necklace dear and i bought in Zermatt... for confidence....the end nearly fail...haha i so scare only.... haha mr bernard also there...he try to calm me down by talking about my life over there.... he is quite friendly i think...but still dont talk to him much...not familiar... and not interested to no him...cause of... dear dear dont no why...now i see guys all also no feeling d...even leng cai...a good sign for dear dear haha

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